Girl Time!!!

Made a random desicion yesterday... instead of going to the movies, my friend and I decided to invite a few of the girls over to mine. We had chips and dip, and lots of wine and beer. We talked the night away... different conversations going on at each end of the room. I have such "comic" friends. I often think that if i wrote the scripts up of what has happened when we get together it would make a damn good series on TV! Haha! It was great... they all stayed over the night as well, and we picked up breakfast this morning and drove to the lakeside where we sat and ate and then went for a stroll around the lake before some of the girls took off for work! And you know... I realised it's the simple things that really matter. Spending time with all my friends has kept me smiling all day and I'm doing so now. The best part about when my friends and I get together... there's no bitchiness, no giving out, no fighting.... Just great fun and purely enjoying eachothers company! BRILLIANT!!! I salute all best friends out there! God bless the people that make you smile... in good times and bad... they will always be there!
Meg.

My Summer Begins

So I've finished college officially for the summer. With the way things are where i'm living it's highly doubtful i'll get a job. These are usually the times i struggle the most, when im at home too much. Only just this morning i brought my dog for a walk, not that far as he's a bit too old for a long walk. The instant i git back my dad decided to have a go at me telling me i SHOULD be going for a long walk... 4 or 5 miles... as if he even does that. i dont mind walking, in fact, with music in my ears i quiet enjoy it. It's when he says i should, and when i know that it's a hint at my weight. i know i'm a little overweight, but it doesn't bother me! It's when my own father cant seem to accept me for who i am that i tend to get upset. Am i reacting a little harshly? Hmmm... maybe over time you'll see. My dad has been a routine robot since my mother died almost 11years ago. He works, all day, from the minute he gets up until the evening, Late, when he watches some TV, has dinner, washes and leaves to go to the pub. He avoids having to deal with real situations. gives out and gets angry when you least expect it about things that may have happened a few days ago and he seemed ok with at the time. He gives no indication of being mad until he shouting. I think it's this that makes things hard. There is never a moment where you can think he's fine he wont get mad when i tell him this. There's no constant.Don't get me wrong... He's a good man and has done so much for my brothers and I... but he is just surviving, he has no life and i would love to change this! Why don't I you ask? I have not the first clue how to.

Meg.

First Blog!

I've always found writing about things in my life helps me to rationalise and make sense of it all. Maybe it also helps me deal with the bad things. I've discovered over the last year that whilst it helps, it may not be enough. Communication is a big problem these days. My home being one place that the word communication is foriegn and almost unrecognisable. In my discoveries over the last year, it happens i've stopped writing in my diary. This is a huge thing for me as it was a regular occurence in my ever changing life. The reason for this change? Someone who LISTENS. Truly. I no longer feel the need to write on paper and hide it away. I have found somone, now part of my life, that i can share every thought and feeling with. This, they say, overwhelms them. I don't think many people would have the kind of relationship i've found. An unconditional sharing relationship. We Talk, Joke, Laugh and share. We've never met and yet fully appreciate eachother. I can tell this person everything, openly and honestly. Everything. being the type that would usually struggle to tell a person anything, it's truly beneficial for me... and in a way... i think i've been saved... there was a build up inside me and this person coming into my life has now unburdened me in that i can share with them instead of holding everything inside. If everyone communicated the way this person and i do... What a place this world would be! Something i can only dream! Everyone should have this.

Meg.