So I've finished college officially for the summer. With the way things are where i'm living it's highly doubtful i'll get a job. These are usually the times i struggle the most, when im at home too much. Only just this morning i brought my dog for a walk, not that far as he's a bit too old for a long walk. The instant i git back my dad decided to have a go at me telling me i SHOULD be going for a long walk... 4 or 5 miles... as if he even does that. i dont mind walking, in fact, with music in my ears i quiet enjoy it. It's when he says i should, and when i know that it's a hint at my weight. i know i'm a little overweight, but it doesn't bother me! It's when my own father cant seem to accept me for who i am that i tend to get upset. Am i reacting a little harshly? Hmmm... maybe over time you'll see. My dad has been a routine robot since my mother died almost 11years ago. He works, all day, from the minute he gets up until the evening, Late, when he watches some TV, has dinner, washes and leaves to go to the pub. He avoids having to deal with real situations. gives out and gets angry when you least expect it about things that may have happened a few days ago and he seemed ok with at the time. He gives no indication of being mad until he shouting. I think it's this that makes things hard. There is never a moment where you can think he's fine he wont get mad when i tell him this. There's no constant.Don't get me wrong... He's a good man and has done so much for my brothers and I... but he is just surviving, he has no life and i would love to change this! Why don't I you ask? I have not the first clue how to.
Meg.
This Blog is really just to share my thoughts and experiences from day to day! Enjoy!
Welcome Followers
I think it's vital to welcome people to the page. I'm looking more for a way to express myself and hopefully share with people some of the things in everyday life that people may not necessarily talk about. In my house Nothing is talked about... and well.. if it is... it tends to be more shouted about at random and then suddenly dropped. I'm living amongst problems and have been told i'm the rock in the house. sometimes that's very tough. Being there for my family gives me a great feeling, but sometimes i have to ask "Who's there for me?"
I don't feel like my family actually know me. they sure dont listen to me. They hear what i say, but don't listen. Hence the Name on my blog.
It is with this thought that i decide to share with any follower dedicated enough to read my ramblings the very things that happen in my house and my life. i shall share my true feelings and thoughts... they may not always be nice, but they will be realistic, and i'm sure there will be others who can relate to what i experience too.
I'm hoping that here is a place i can get listened to.
I also have a list of some music that makes me feel good and that i feel can be good for others too if they really connect with the lyrics. I find that music has been what saved me after my mother died. It still does to this day. I listen to music everyday and am constantly looking up and finding new stuff. Just love it... Keeps me going!
I will appreciate any thought or comments. maybe even questions about my experiences as i post. Hence The e-mail address below. Thank You. Enjoy.
Meg.
(meghrd@gmail.com)
I don't feel like my family actually know me. they sure dont listen to me. They hear what i say, but don't listen. Hence the Name on my blog.
It is with this thought that i decide to share with any follower dedicated enough to read my ramblings the very things that happen in my house and my life. i shall share my true feelings and thoughts... they may not always be nice, but they will be realistic, and i'm sure there will be others who can relate to what i experience too.
I'm hoping that here is a place i can get listened to.
I also have a list of some music that makes me feel good and that i feel can be good for others too if they really connect with the lyrics. I find that music has been what saved me after my mother died. It still does to this day. I listen to music everyday and am constantly looking up and finding new stuff. Just love it... Keeps me going!
I will appreciate any thought or comments. maybe even questions about my experiences as i post. Hence The e-mail address below. Thank You. Enjoy.
Meg.
(meghrd@gmail.com)
A Little Bit About Myself
- Meg
- I Live, for the moment with my Family, which consists of My Dad, My two brothers and of course... Me! Life hasn't been easy on me and though a I've been through a lot and often struggle i think i remain optimistic most of the time though i feel lost at times and i tend to take on the role of my Mother (Who died when i was nine)which leads the rest of my family to have unrealistic expectations of me. I'm an emotional person. I take everything to heart, which is probably why Life can seem tough at times. I do believe however that i have good values, and that i can maybe pass on some wisdom to those who struggle too. Many of my friends seek advice from me. I'm a problem & a problem fixer... Ah!... a problem fixing problem! I apparently give great advice.. i just dont tend to use it myself. Im Studying Social Care at the minute and am fascinated by this area of work, and though it was something i hadnt actually considered, i feel like it found me!
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